Define Yourself

Posted on February 29, 2016. Filed under: Spiritual Awakening | Tags: , , , , , |

At the beginning of our life, we are like sponges, soaking up everything from our environment:  thoughts, beliefs, goals, values, rules, agendas.  We see ourselves through the eyes of those around us.  When they look with love, we learn to love and value ourselves.  But all too often, they look at us through their own woundedness, through their own cracked and damaged filters.  We then learn to see ourselves as flawed and damaged too.

At some point, we hopefully begin to see that this definition of who we are just doesn’t fit
right.  The beliefs that we’re broken, damaged, wrong, flawed – whatever words we’ve come to identify with – start to become uncomfortable, limiting Accept no one's definition of your lifeand restrictive.  The truth of the matter is that they’ve always been confining, but at some point we notice that restriction and begin to rebel against it.  We try to break free of the bonds that we don’t even realize we’ve unwittingly accepted.

At some point, usually when the pain becomes unbearable, we begin to shed the layers of our human woundedness and seek the truth that has always resided beneath that surface story of our flaws.  We begin to search for the true definition of who we are.  It is then, in my opinion, that life begins to truly be the magical experience that it was always intended to be.  It is then that we begin to wake up to the truth of our divine heritage and release this illusion of broken-ness with which we’ve always identified.

The freedom that ensues from reaching for this personal definition of self is nothing short of mind-blowing!  We realize that WE get to choose.  We alone get to define who we are.  And if we allow others to impact us, we realize that it is a CHOICE – a choice we can change at any point in time.

The pattern of needing unbearable pain to be the impetus to begin this process of self awareness and understanding seems to be shifting too.  No longer will it be necessary to dive into the depths of what has been called “the dark night of the soul” in order to examine and change these definitions of self.  Certainly, that pattern still exists and is a valid choice.  It’s just no longer the  only choice available to us.  That makes it so very exciting to be alive at this time.  Life is shifting.  Our awareness of ourselves is shifting, changing and expanding.

Let the momentum of these shifts carry you forward in your own self exploration.  Begin to release the notion that you are flawed or broken or damaged.  See yourself instead as the powerful, creative and imaginative being that you’ve always truly been.  Embrace the freedom that you hold to define yourself – and accept nothing less than the magnificence that is your birthright.  This is how life was meant to be experienced – from this place of power, grace and love.

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Suffering is optional

Posted on December 5, 2015. Filed under: Spiritual Practice | Tags: , , , , , , , , |

Life holds so many mysteries and surprises – some exciting and uplifting, some downright devastating.  No one seems to make it through life unscathed.  We all bear scars of one sort or another as if to prove that yes, we have walked through the fires of life.  Why then do some seem to do it with so much greater ease than others?  What secrets do they know that pave their journey with ease and grace while others are continually raked over the coals?

The answer is both simpler and more complex than you might first imagine.  Life happens.  Pain occurs.  Whether it is physical or emotional, painful things happen.  However, our response to the painful stimuli or the pain itself determines whether we suffer or not.  That response is within our control, and it is our response which gives us the power to move through the pain by letting it pass or to stay stuck in it thereby creating our own suffering.

Suffering is optionalAs you might guess, our thoughts have a tremendous impact on our responses.  If we see life as a struggle, we’re going to attract circumstances to prove that perspective.  Contrarily, if we see life as supportive, we will experience evidence to support that view.  Letting go of the need to suffer then becomes yet another benefit to adopting a positive outlook on life.

The following suggestions can help to shift your thoughts toward a more positive perspective and thus reduce the amount of suffering that you experience.

Accept personal responsibility.

When we assume responsibility for our lives, we put ourselves in a position of power.  We hold the power to choose.  We have the authority to exercise free will.  We can set limits and boundaries.  We put ourselves into the driver’s seat of our life.  We empower ourselves.

By accepting this responsibility, we raise our vibration above helplessness which feeling like a victim to life’s seeming randomness engenders.  This shifts our perspective as well.  It gives us the insight that challenges happen, difficult experiences occur.  However, we no longer see these happenings as meant to beat us down but, in fact, to give us opportunities to rise up.  Challenges become the pathway to personal growth and expansion.  We build upon our previous successes and believe in our ability to overcome whatever life throws our way.  We will not stay down when we know our own power.

Be open to learning.

Life is about the journey, the continual unfolding of experience and understanding.  We are here, I believe, to experience ourselves as the divine creators that we are.  As such, we are continually given happenings through which we can deepen our understanding of ourselves and our power to create.  We learn about our resiliency, our tenacity, our precociousness.  We test our limits so that we can move beyond them.

When life is viewed with the intent to learn something from every experience, we no longer need to judge things as either good or bad since every experience teaches something.  We create more latitude and freedom to go beyond our previously conceived limitations.  When we can release the need to already know everything about life and ourselves, we open to learning more than we ever dreamed possible, often through means which we never even considered.

Don’t take it personally.

We so often act as if everything that we witness in life is aimed at us personally.  We take offense at a friend’s apparent thoughtlessness.  We become wounded because someone we want to be with is busy doing other things.  We assume that our partner’s silence or withdrawal is our fault.  We create stories in our minds that explain whatever we’re observing, and for one reason or another, we make ourselves wrong.

Putting ourselves in this place of being at fault for every little thing stems from the unconscious perspective of being a victim to life.  But we are not victims – we are the creators of our experience.  So when we stop telling stories that perpetuate the myth of our victimhood and stop making up reasons why we are at fault for things, we are free to simply observe life.  That friend’s thoughtlessness may have been caused by her preoccupation with her parent’s failing health.  It had nothing to do with our relationship.  The friend we want to be with who is busy doing other things is juggling a full schedule and will happily spend time with us soon.  And our partner’s silent withdrawal may be his way of dealing with added pressures at work.  Most of the things we observe other people doing have absolutely nothing to do with us.  So quit taking responsibility for their actions.

Being detached enough to simply observe life creates an incredible freedom to respond with love rather than using things as excuses to feel bad about ourselves.  Rather than becoming yet another reason to suffer, life becomes inviting and exciting.

Avoid comparisons.

When we operate from the unconscious perspective of being a victim, we often compare our experiences to others.  Without understanding what someone else has done to get to where we now see them standing in life, we simply decide that we are “less than” or “not enough” because we aren’t also standing there.  We inevitably make the comparisons about our worth which can only be damaging.

When we become confident about our undeniable value and worth, we no longer need comparisons to validate our position.  We realize that comparisons are actually irrelevant.

Trust that things are always working out.

Holding onto the belief that things are always working out for us puts us in a place of positive expectation.  We begin to see our experiences as life affirming rather than negating.  We weather difficulties with more ease because we understand that all situations are temporary and that by not resisting them, we allow them to flow past us more quickly.  We trust that every difficulty is actually an opportunity to break through old limits and create a more expansive future.  We look at our life as the mirror it is and rather than deciding that things are indicating we aren’t good enough, we see the areas in our lives where our beliefs are creating barriers to our potential.  Then we use that information to create even greater joy by moving past those barriers.

Life offers us endless support when we are willing to accept it.  Otherwise, we can also experience an endless array of difficulty which must surely indicate that we are unworthy and unlovable.  Ultimately, the choice is ours.  We can allow life to validate our worth, create ever greater opportunities for growth and endless opportunities to share love.  Or we can wallow in the despair of never being enough, never measuring up to whatever self-imposed standard we’ve created internally, and having no chance of beating the overwhelming odds that life stacks against us.  One choice is filled with love, light, joy and possibility.  The other is mired in despair, helplessness and hopelessness.

Isn’t it awesome that we can choose either option?!

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Figuring it out as we go…

Posted on December 22, 2014. Filed under: Spiritual Practice | Tags: , , , , , , , |

Life is a process.  Each experience leads to another, to the next.  For better or for worse, we can only take one step at a time, whether that feels like a forward step or a backward step.  We just keep racking up experience after experience.  And we hope that we are going somewhere – somewhere that feels good, that feels fulfilling.

We made assessments about life at a very early age.  We made determinations about our worth, our value, about success and failure – long before we fully understood the depth of meaning of those concepts.  Then we spend our lives marching to the tune of those beliefs acquired long before we had the power to choose deliberately and consciously.  We were subjected to customs, traditions, duties and obligations – and those things became the fabric of the tapestry of How We View Life.

At some point, most of us wake up to the fact that we can actually examine and discard those beliefs that feel like vices around our very lifeblood – those things that choke the hope, joy and love out of our existence.  You know the ones I’m talking about – those things like, “You’re a worthless piece of ^%*$,” or “You don’t deserve to be happy,” or “It’s all your fault.”  Pick your poison.  We’re all carrying some version of it around inside of us.

The way I now see it, the path to happiness lies in exposing these false beliefs that underlie the very Each experiencefoundation of who we see ourselves to be.  They impact everything.  Every relationship.  Every interaction.  Every choice.  We’re either proving to ourselves that they’re true, and we are worthless – or we’re faced with the realization that the very foundation of what we’ve built our identity upon is cracked, damaged and in dire need of rebuilding.

So that brings me back to my initial comment – Life is a process.  I said that to a friend today, and he thought he heard me say, Life is a crock.  Perhaps that’s really what I was saying.  Sometimes the process just plain sucks.  It can be hard.  But only – and I mean ONLY – because somewhere along the line we’ve deemed it so.

See, we came in with a clean slate.  We entered this life knowing that we are divine creators, still basking in the loving oneness that precedes and supersedes life as we consciously know it.  And then we forgot.  We forgot that we come from love and that the point is and has always been simply experiencing and expressing this love in an infinite variety of ways.  Somewhere along the line we messed it all up by coming to believe that we are anything less than who we were when we began this journey as little tiny infants.  We created limiting beliefs … and now we’re on the journey of exposing them for the falsehoods that they are, one by stinking one.

Gradually we begin to reassemble the pieces of the puzzle into their proper places.  We begin to see ourselves as the powerful creators of our experience that we always have been, but which we were taught to diminish and discount, belittle and bemoan.  When we take responsibility for our lives, we see that each experience is one more piece of the puzzle reassembling our divine birthright which is to know that love is all there is.  Everything else is illusion.

So while it is true that sometimes the process stinks, it does lead us to the magnificent revelation and understanding of our divine connection to all things.  As humans, we’re all just figuring it out as we go.  And nothing could be more perfect than that.

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The illusion is that someone else put up the fences – when it’s been our doing all along.

Posted on December 9, 2014. Filed under: Spiritual Practice | Tags: , , , , , , , , , , |

The illusion is that someone else put up the fencesWe want to hold someone else responsible for the fences we run into. We want to blame them for putting up these barriers – when in reality, any barriers we encounter are always of our own making.

I know that is a hard pill to swallow. “How can that possibly be? Why would I put up fences to hold me back? So-and-so is the one that made me mad or is being a jerk or …” or whatever story we tell that shifts the focus from our own thoughts and beliefs that are really responsible for creating the feeling state that we’re in. And try as we might, that responsibility falls squarely on us.

I understand. I get it. Life happens. Things break. Kids make poor choices. People act crabby or get depressed. We have disappointments. But in ALL of these things, it is up to us alone to CHOOSE how to respond, how to feel and then how to act. We can let our inner dialogue convince us that we’re powerless, that someone else is at fault – which again just puts us in that victim stance of powerlessness – or we can recognize our power to pause that inner conversation and shift it.

I’m not saying this is easily done. Hardly! There are so few role models for this. It is certainly NOT what most of us have been taught. We have no idea what this looks like – but THAT is no excuse for not making the effort, for not choosing to stop self-defeating self-talk, for not interrupting the “automatic” knee-jerk reactions we’re used to employing by default.

Pause. Breathe. Ask yourself, “What is appropriate for me right now?” Or “What good in this situation am I not seeing?” It’s solely up to us to change these patterns which no longer serve us.

And sometimes… it’s best to just lay low, curl up with a book, and wait for another day to try again.

Whatever you choose, own it. Be okay with it. Know that somehow all of this is leading to a better tomorrow – once we quit banging against those fences that we think are holding us back.

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FLOW Junkie

Posted on June 23, 2013. Filed under: Spiritual Awakening | Tags: , , , , , , , , , , , , , |

I have a confession to make.  I have become a “Flow Junkie.”  I’m sure it is not as ominous as that might sound, and I surely hope that it’s contagious – because it’s pretty incredible and I’d love for everyone to experience this too.

The other day I had the pleasure of connecting with a friend over a three-hour lunch.  We hadn’t connected in a while, so we both had a lot of interesting life experiences to share.  She said that another friend of hers had “accused” her of being a “flow junkie.”  The phrase stuck with me, and I’ve concluded that I too have become a Flow Junkie.  I think that’s pretty incredible.

Life has continued to propel me along my path.  Sometimes I bounce over the rocks, and sometimes I float along with great ease, but the ground I’ve covered is undeniable.

2012 Jun Andy and Friends Slip N Slide 066In the past year, I’ve directed most of my creative juices in to my Facebook page Soul Speaking.  I’ve experienced great success with it too.  My page has flourished and has over 116,000 followers from around the world.  I now regularly connect with people at a soul-level through Akashic Record Readings.  I’ve become a published author by contributing a chapter to a book about the people behind those FB pages.  While that experience included many unforeseen side-trips, I’m eternally grateful for the blessing that it continues to bestow in my life.

In the past year, I’ve become so much more firmly rooted and grounded in my center, in my connection to MY Source.  I see Life as an amazing unfolding of joyous opportunities to create, expand and experience.  The possibilities are truly endless, and I’ve certainly become “addicted” to feeling this joyous connection.  I crave the high-flying feelings of delight and euphoria as new experiences and opportunities crest over my horizons.  I love knowing with every cell of my being that life is always working out for me, and I love basking in the trust that everything happens for my highest good.

I revel in the relationships made available to me because of this unerring focus on feeling good.  I delight in watching amazing circumstances align themselves for me and for the people in my life.  “Magic” happens regularly.  Miracles have become commonplace!

Oh yes!  I most certainly have become a FLOW Junkie. And I cannot recommend it highly enough.  I really suggest that you try it for yourself.  But I’ll warn you – it doesn’t take much to get you hooked!

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Open to Receiving

Posted on July 19, 2011. Filed under: Spiritual Awakening | Tags: , , , , , , , |

Do you know that you are connected to an endless, streaming, continuous flow of unconditional love?  Do you realize the magnitude and the magnificence of that knowing?

Close your eyes for a minute and recall a moment of pure, utter bliss.  Do you recall the euphoria of that feeling?  The expansiveness of being so much bigger than the physical you in that memory?

Focus on that feeling of bliss, milking it, making it even bigger and brighter.  Savor that feeling for just another moment.

It is in those moments of sheer and utter bliss that we are most closely aligned with our Soul – that beautiful, expansive, loving part of ourselves that is forever connected to God, to Source.  In bliss we stand as one with our Soul, fully embodying the endless and continuous flow of unconditional love from God.  As electricity flows continuously to light a lightbulb, so too does God’s unconditional love flow to and through us to light our lives.

And yet, how often do we unwittingly flip the switch, interrupting our willingness to receive that flow?

Searching for that connection to God, we often erect barriers and obstacles, establishing conditions on our worthiness to receive this endless stream of love from God.  Then we spend our physical lives slowly dismantling those barriers and obstacles.

The truth of the matter, for me at least, is that this wonderful, powerful, healing, all-encompassing stream of loving energy is always available to us.  Always.  Endlessly.  Continuously.

The only question is whether you are open to receiving it?  What would it take for you to allow this endless and continuous love to flow through your life?

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Redefining Success

Posted on July 6, 2011. Filed under: Spiritual Practice | Tags: , , , , , , |

Success.  It’s one of those things that we’re all striving to attain or achieve.  But what exactly is success?  How do you define it?

Certainly, success can have different meanings depending upon the context.  Financial success can be defined as a big house, nice car, the accumulation of pretty things or the freedom to travel and live as you choose.  Professional success might be defined as fame, respect from your peers, or achieving the top of the corporate ladder.  Personal success… what would that be defined as?  Being in control of your emotions?  A well-developed sense of self and personal acceptance?  A long-term relationship?

It seems to me that many, if not all, typical definitions of success contain an “external” factor.  Whether it’s the accumulation of wealth or accolades, success seems to involve, or at least include, something outside of ourselves.

I’d like to challenge those notions of success.  What if success were simply measured by our happiness?  How successful is your life, then?  Simple – not necessarily easy.

Most of us move through life picking up ideas that our behaviors create others’ happiness.  Getting good grades as kids “makes” our parents happy.  Working hard “makes” our bosses happy.  It’s true that those behaviors make someone else’s life easier, but that’s not really the same thing as making them happy.  And yet our parents and bosses fall victim to the same mistaken belief that someone or something outside of themselves is responsible for their happiness.  The cycle of mistaken belief continues.

If I’m responsible for someone else’s happiness, then it stands to reason that someone else is responsible for mine.

Can you see what a quandary this sets up?  How successful have you ever been at making someone else happy?  And how effective have the people and things in your life been at making you happy?

Whenever we set our sights on things outside of ourselves to make us happy, we’re bound to fail.  This is where our current definition of success falls short.  I can acquire uncountable wealth and accumulate myriads of treasure and still be miserable.  Would my life be deemed a success or not?  Is the point of life to accumulate things or to know and love one’s self?

I’ve come to value the knowing, loving and accepting of myself as infinitely more valuable than rooms and rooms full of “stuff.”  My happiness is paramount to my success as a soul in physical form.  By using my happiness as the benchmark to gauge my life and guide my decisions, I move closer and closer to embodying all of the possibilities that my life holds.  I step more fully into the divine, spiritual being that I truly am.  By choosing happiness, I bring God into my daily experience.

To me, THAT is a much more meaningful definition of a successful life.

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Metamorphosis

Posted on May 27, 2011. Filed under: Spiritual Awakening, Spiritual Practice | Tags: , , , , , , , , , , , , , , |

Once again, my life has shown me how true it is that treasures rise up out of the ashes.  Through trials and tribulations we are transformed into truer and truer versions of ourselves – which I’m coming to believe is the whole point of our life experiences in the first place.

What on earth am I babbling about, you’re probably asking yourself.  And that would be a very valid question.  Please allow me to explain.

For the past six years, I’ve owned and operated my own scrapbooking business, almost single-handedly.  Certainly, I have had numerous people help me along the way, but the bottom line has been that the weight of the business fell on my shoulders.  Many of you have heard me jokingly refer to Sue in design, Sue in production, Sue in accounts receivable, Sue in shipping and Sue in customer service.  You get the idea.  Business owners wear many hats – and I’ve worn them all at some point or another.

On Monday, my website was taken down by the hosting company because it had been compromised by hackers who were now sending out phishing spam emails from it.  I seriously have no idea how one would accomplish this – but apparently computer hackers aren’t limited by my same lack of knowledge.  And ignorance of the process does not protect oneself from the outcome.  So Albums & Answers’ website was deleted.

*POOF*  With a few keystrokes, evidence of six years of my focus, time, energy and efforts disappeared.  While I’ve been slowly moving in this direction anyway, I was still caught off-guard by the overwhelming grief I felt when the site disappeared.  A myriad of emotions surfaced as I processed through the thoughts, consequences and ramifications of this ending.

Many of you are unaware of the new dream that has been forming and gathering momentum in the background of my running this scrapbook business.  Over the past couple years, I’ve also been pursuing my interest in spiritual growth and psychic development.  You can imagine my surprise as I came to realize they were one in the same pursuits.

In typical Sue fashion, wanting to share what I’m learning and to help people to see life as the amazing adventure that I now recognize it to be, a new business idea began to take shape.  And while I’m saddened at the ending of Albums & Answers, I again see how endings are just the beginning of something new.  So I proudly introduce you to Soul Speaking – my personal growth business to help connect you to your authentic self.

Over the past few years, my understanding of “truth” has undergone a huge transformation.  Truth has come to represent nothing more than those things that align us with our authentic selves.  One person’s truth is not necessarily the same as another’s.  So how do we discern our own truth amid all of the “stories” we’ve been told all of our lives?  The answer is surprisingly simple (not easy, but simple):  we know our truth by how it feels.  When we feel joy, love, excitement, bliss and those types of feelings, we are experiencing those delicious moments of connection to our authentic self, to our Source, to God.

The goal, then, to live in connection with our authentic self can be summed up by a few short words:  Follow your bliss.  It is my goal with Soul Speaking to help you know your Self, embrace your Life and live your Joy.  To accomplish that goal, I now offer several services.

Joy Coaching provides on-going (ideally weekly) support to examine the choices you’re currently making which are shaping your current reality.  By accepting responsibility for everything that shows up in your life, you now have the power to change those things that you don’t like.  Together we find ways to  move your closer and closer to a life filled with joy and bliss.

Reiki Healing, an ancient form of energy healing, helps to restore the natural flow of energy through your body and creates a state of deep relaxation which promotes healing and relieves stress.  Ideally, reiki is performed in person by the practitioner laying their hands on a fully clothed client who is laying on a massage table.  However, reiki can also be sent long-distance as energy is not bound by spatial constraints.  A reiki session leaves the client feeling deeply relaxed, promoting our natural state of well-being.

I also offer Akashic Record Readings to help gain perspective on your life by accessing the vibrational (Akashic) record of your soul’s journey through all of time.  These records contain wisdom and guidance from the broader knowing of our soul.  This broader perspective can give us practical insight into our daily lives that we often miss while we’re embroiled in our personal dramas.

Soul Speaking is about giving voice to the spirit within you, connecting you to the wisdom and guidance of that inner spirit.  Life truly is a magnificent adventure.  Each moment holds the potential for joy.  The choice is ours.  What will you choose?

Contact Sue at sue@soulspeaking.net for more information on any of these services.  Limited appointments are available through June.  What are YOU waiting for to start living a life filled with joy?!

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I’m moving out of the neighborhood…

Posted on March 6, 2011. Filed under: Spiritual Awakening | Tags: , , , |

My lease is up.  And I’ve made the momentous decision not to renew it.  Now, while I haven’t lived permanently in the neighborhood, I have kept a place here for a long time – accommodating unexpected visits and overnight stays.  But I’m through.  The neighborhood is falling apart, and I am so done keeping even a temporary residence here.

Are you familiar with my neighborhood?  Maybe you even have a temporary residence here too.  At the very least, I’m sure you’ve driven past and seen the sign at the entrance.  It reads “VictimHood.”  Do you know it?

The landlords are obviously upset with my decision to move on.  They like to keep the houses and apartments full here.  And since there’s usually a waiting list to get into the ‘hood, it has never been difficult for them to keep the neighborhood full.  But times are changing.  Maybe you’ve noticed that too.

People are getting restless.  My neighbors were just talking the other day on how they’re planning to make some changes themselves.  They realize that they DO have choices, and they plan to implement those changes soon.  The landlords are going to have a fit about that too.

See?  The landlords here like to have everyone believe that the tenants of the ‘hood have no where else to go, that they won’t be welcome in any other neighborhood – or that there is no room in any other neighborhood.  But my neighbors are beginning to see through those arguments.  They’ve felt the need to take some control back in their lives – to spruce the place up with some color and texture of their own choosing, and the landlords are livid.  Because the rule in the neighborhood is that “You have NO choice.”  The landlords tell everyone that life is unfair and these things just happen to you.  There’s nothing that you can do about them.

Ah, but the landlords are wrong.  And they even know they’re wrong, but they wouldn’t stay in business very long if that became common knowledge, would they?  So the landlords perpetuate the myth that the tenants have no other option but to stay here.

So, I’ve told my next door neighbors that I’m moving out.  I’m tired of feeling out of control.  It’s true that I can’t control what happens in my life, but I most certainly CAN control what I think and then feel about it.  I can see life as an amazing adventure full of opportunities to identify what I don’t want and make it into what I DO want.  I can appreciate the amazing people who I’ve met along my travels, the amazing friends who are traveling with me.

I can see the things that go wrong in my life as chances to make changes and create new things that I do want.  I can see life as the mirror that it is, showing me those parts of myself that move me closer to God and those parts of me that make me feel separated from God.

The key, it has occurred to me, is to view life with a slight impersonal detachment, as if I’m watching a movie that I’m both starring in and directing at the same time.  It’s tricky to play both of those roles, but one thing is for certain.  I have NO chance of doing that if I stay in VictimHood.  There’s no room for those kinds of choices here.

So I’m moving out.  I’m even thinking of tearing down my house – leaving one less place for someone else to move into.  Eventually I know that the whole neighborhood will be torn down and replaced with a brighter, newer neighborhood.  Maybe it’ll be called ConsciousLiving or FreeChoice.  In any case, I am SO done with VictimHood that I can’t leave fast enough.

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Crystal Clarity

Posted on February 15, 2010. Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: , , , |

Occasionally, during the long winter months in Minnesota, atmospheric conditions converge to create the spectacular ice frost known as “hoar-frost.”  When fog settles over the countryside and the temperature is just right, the water vapor begins to freeze to everything it touches.  The ice crystals grow and grow until they resemble an icy lace, coating the edges of trees, bushes, plants and fences.  The results are spectacular!

Usually by mid-day, the fog lifts to be replaced by a brilliant blue sky.  The contrast of these large crystals against the winter blue sky is nothing short of breathtaking.

Just the day before this magical winter display, I experienced a personal moment of crystal clarity.  It was one of those “AHA” moments of such magnitude that it stayed with me throughout the next day.

Lately, I’ve wrestled with a relationship that has left me feeling used and taken advantage of.  I’ve struggled with feelings of hurt, resentment and abandonment.  And my feelings were complicated by the fact that my friend had unknowingly created this situation whirling around and around in my head.  I knew she had not intentionally hurt me, but knowing this didn’t make me feel any less wounded.

After finally writing pages and pages in my journal to validate and release my pain, I was blessed with a knowing deep within the core of my being.  I KNEW I was loved, whole and complete.  But this was so much more powerful than simply knowing this in my head.  I experienced this knowing in every cell of my body, in every dimension of my being.  In that moment I felt God – and it was utterly amazing, breathtaking, and astounding.  I’ve never felt such deep peace and love and contentment.

I realized that everything that I’d been seeking from my friend was already there inside me.  I did not need anything from anyone because I was complete, whole.  It occurred to me that my relationships are not to give me something but to show me what I already have through my connection to God, to Source.

This feeling of complete-ness stayed with me into the next day.  I saw the world through eyes of love and non-judgment.  People shined with joy, the world shimmered with love (and a beautiful display of hoar-frost).

I feel blessed to have been granted a taste of seeing life from this heart-centered place.  By being connected to this Source of Love, I felt above, unaffected by, the dramas of daily life.  What an amazing experience!

The most astounding part of this experience for me was seeing that the words we study create an intellectual experience of love, acceptance, One-ness.  What I felt was not a thought but an immersion in the concept – every cell of my body knew and resonated this love.

People I met that next day, friends I haven’t seen in years, commented that I looked fabulous.  I know, however, that they weren’t seeing me.  They saw my Spirit basking in the new-found place of love.

What a holy moment – this moment of crystal clarity, this understanding of the Love which we are.  I am ever so grateful for this experience of being love.  I now believe that this is the state in which we strive to walk every day.  From this place of love, truly all things are possible.

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